I hate this. I wouldn't wish this pain on my worst enemy.
I feel like a failure as a wife and as a mother.
My body failed me.
I'm so sorry, Buddha. I really did everything I thought was right for you. I hope you didn't suffer or hurt.
I miss you every second of the day.
I am taking a BOTB break. I can't tell if I'm bitter, jealous or hurting so it's just best I leave it alone for a while. My heart is so heavy and broken. It's not fair to continue to dump it on them.
I want Buddha back. Even for just a minute. I want to know who he would have grown up to be. Who would he look like? Who's temperament would he have had? I want to feel him kick and move in my belly. I just want it all back.
I want a do over.
Boulder Ridge Zoo
2 weeks ago