Saturday, April 25, 2009


I would have been 40 weeks pg (I am still trying to figure out why my due date was 5/7/09. Yet another reason we left my first OB, lol).

Anyway, long story short, I survived! No tears, not really overwhelmingly sad. Just filled with peace.

Miss California (Yes, the same one who is being burned at the stake right now for voicing her opinion when asked for it-yet another topic I could speak for hours on but won't in this entry) said on the Today Show last week following her loss at the Miss USA pageant "It was not in God's plan for me to win last night." It hit me like a ton of bricks. It wasn't in God's plan for me to have Buddha be just ours. So be it. As the hymn says "It is well with my soul".

Moving on. My test date in Monday. I doubt I'm pregnant this cycle. Ben had his SA the same day I O'ed, we didn't sex it up prior to my O date because of his SA, etc, etc. It would take a miracle, which I believe can happen. Time will tell. I'm not really counting on it though.



AmandaHoyt said...

I'm so glad you were at peace yesterday - I was definitely praying for you to be more peaceful than sad. I hope your test this month is miraculously positive :)
Hugs and prayers,

*Amy Leigh* said...

Good luck on the testing front...crazier things have definitely happened!! Keep us posted!!!

Mrs.Rotty said...

i hope that if i go thru a struggle like your's i can come out of it as level headed and calm as you!

Jessica Loves Trevor said...

I'm so sorry you had to experience this type of "anniversary." I can't imagine how hard that would be.

I wish you the best of luck with testing this cycle!

momqat said...

Keep in mind that if Miss USA wins the Miss Universe pageant, Miss California, as first runner up, becomes Miss USA. Isn't ironic, don't you think??

Chatham said...

I wanted to thank you for writing about how your "due date" was. I am living in fear of mine right now. Add to the fact that it is also my anniversary. I am scared I am going to have a break down, lol.