Saturday, May 2, 2009

Exercises in Self Control

After confiding in a (much younger) friend yesterday, and telling her this will be our last natural cycle TTC, I came thisclose to issuing my first IRL throat punch. Clearly getting pregnant is not working on our own, so we are definitely moving to Clomid next cycle (which was the issue of debate in our house for weeks). After I get done with my whole shpeil about how nervous I am about taking Clomid, the risks that come along with Clomid, etc, etc, she looks me dead in the eye and says:

"Why don't you just relax. I heard that's how people get pregnant."

For serious girl? We tried the "just relax" method for six months way back at the beginning of our TTC jouney and have taken several "just relax" cycles off in the mean time. It took everything I had not to scream at her

"MY BODY DOESN'T WORK LIKE IT IS SUPPOSED TO! RELAXING WON'T FORCE MY OVARIES TO PUMP OUT EGGS!"

but I didn't. I kept my cool. Because I'm cool like that.

So yea. That's what happened yesterday. Today, however, I started my period. Exciting, right? I'll just add one more tally mark to the "FAIL" side. Let's see....that's 21 FAILed cycles, 1 WIN that later turned into a FAIL cycle, and 0 WIN cycles.

At least I'm consistent.

Next cycle we (meaning I) will be on Metformin the entire cycle (which seems to be helping me O, but I am still not Oing strong enough according to my US's and RE), Clomid CD 5-9 (hold on to your ass! I have heard about the Clomid Crazies.) and Progesterone from O-the time I start my period or 13weeks3days pregnant-whichever comes first. When I go to the RE on (assuming) Monday for my CD3 US (my RE monitors your entire cycle while on Clomid bc of OHSS, thinned uterine lining, etc) we will also talk about injections to trigger ovulation (HCG injections). Then we will wait and see if a medicated cycle brings better results. Still with me? There is a chart right over there-----> on the right that may help you.

And now you're up to speed.


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5 comments:

Jessica Loves Trevor said...

I swear, people are morons. I totally feel your pain, when we started on Clomid, I got tons of "just relax" and "you're doing this too soon." It makes you want to throw down with those people!

I hope you have some good, strong o's on Clomid. It's really not that bad if you start off at 50mg, it's 100 and really the 150 that got me bad with the crazies. Tell you DH to ignore you on days 5-9! That's awesome you're getting monitored the whole time because it really helps to see what's going on and if it's working. Good luck!!

aLLie said...

I don't think I could have held back a throat punch in that situation. Can you just picture the shocked look on her face as she clutches her throat, totally caught off guard by your fist slamming into it at the speed of light, so quick she only feels the after effects and never saw what actually happened, so shocked that she can't even speak.......

Yeah... I'm having my Clomid crazies right now lol. GL this cycle girl!

Mrs.G said...

::golf claps for self control::
::throws confetti for Clomid::

:) Happy birthday (almost)

momqat said...

I'm proud of you for displaying self control. Next time, I'd suggest a roundhouse kick to the face!
Hope you avoid the crazies, but if they happen, tell DH that you're just like your mom!

Cate said...

Lol, mom DH is Ben.


Silly goose.