Wednesday, March 18, 2009

Infertility Sucks.

That is about as clear and as blunt as I can say it.

This will be the very fast version of what our week has been like. I promise I'll come back and update it more thoroughly by the weekend. It is a lot for us to process and think over, so I want to let it all seep through me before I really post anything.

Please respect this as our personal information. Don't talk about it with other people or use it as a source of gossip. That's just rude and pretty heartless. I know most of you won't do this, but if I do hear of it, then I will have to move this over to a private blog. That really is a pain in the ass to do, so please, be decent and respect my request.

-Meet with the new OB
-LOVE her
-Get orders for about 9384938 rounds of blood work, including a full IF (which stands for infertility, remember that as I will now only be posting IF) work up and a 3 hour glucose test and orders for Ben to get tested as well
-Go over what our plan of action will be for various scenarios
-We leave happy

-Get to the hospital
-Cry as we wait because this whole thing is overtaking me emotionally
-Cry as they draw my blood
-Drink the GOD awful glucose drink-
-Wait an hour
-Have my blood drawn
-Wait an hour
-Have my blood drawn again
-Wait one more hour
-Have my blood drawn again
-Go for one last test (which was brutal)
-Leave for the Imaging Center for my US
-Almost pee all over the US tech because my bladder had to be full
-Have my abdominal US, my ovaries look okay, not great, but not awful
-Have my trans vag US (now referred to as the Dildo Cam), again, ovaries don't look great, but not awful either

There is a lot more to it than that, but I don't even know where to start so I am saving it for another day.

Also, please, please, please don't question my doctors. I had two "friends" do this today and it really pissed me off. Both of them got pregnant on the first try and think you can get pregnant if you "just relax" (IF girls, feel free to punch these two for me). It is a lot of blood work and a lot of testing, but it has to be done. I do not want to go on harsh fertility hormones and drugs if they can be avoided so we are taking a few extra steps. Again, please respect this.

And in other news, Ben and I are doing great. Contrary to popular belief, we are not moping around feeling sorry for ourselves. We are going on about our lives. We have so, so many things to praise God about right now. We are both in secure jobs, my graduation date is coming up, we are growing stronger as a couple every day and are still enjoying our time together doing things we won't be able to do without a baby sitter some day. Please continue to keep us in your prayers, but we don't need to be at the top of the list. There are many people hurting so much more than we are.



*Amy Leigh* said...

I am so glad you loved you OB!!! At this point, that is definitely a major thing!

While I don't know what you are going through-- I hate having blood drawn so I can only imagine what you had to go through!

I hope you get some good news from your labs and until then, I am very happy you are enjoying your life with Ben...Keep us posted and I'll keep praying!

Danse said...

Ugh, I had the glucose thing for PCOS testing and it stunk. I'm glad you like the Drs. though. I know it can be really overwhelming, but keep your chin up, it sounds like you're in good hands.


Erin said...

I'm always praying for you guys =)

and rofl, dildo cam. that's really what they should call those things.