All of the words in all of my life that could never explain and never describe...
Our journey through good times, bad times, in between times, marriage and pregnancy and loss, punctuated with brutal honesty and humor.
Friday, March 13, 2009
You gotta fight. For your right. To Paaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaartaaaaaay!
It is no secret that I am graduating this semester. I shout it from every roof top possible. I have busted my ass for the past seven (!) years to get where I am and I feel like I have the right to be really proud right now.
So, having said that, Marshall U likes to charge insane amounts for their students to participate in graduation ceremonies. By the time you add up cap and gown and graduation fees and all the other nonsense they make you pay for, you could purchase a small island. While discussing this with my dad, we agreed that a family get together at my grandparents house would be more fun and half the cost-and in the hard economic times, who isn't looking to save a buck?
Not to mention that is also the weekend following my birthday AND my last.final.exam.ever.(May 4). If you know me, you know how much I love my birthday. I get excited just thinking about it. I even celebrate my half birthday (which falls on November 4-send me a card).
And to add to the reasons for celebration, this gathering is also the weekend of our due date (May 7) with Buddha. I have been dreading this day since September 22 and know that it has the potential to be a not so fun day. I really want this to be a time of celebration and positivity and overall good feelings. I want to celebrate our baby and the life that he is living in Heaven. The larger part of me is looking forward to May 7 though. It will be closure. No more pregnancy milestones to miss out on, no more woulda-coulda's. Closure. There won't be any big "this should have been our due date" announcement, but it will linger in the back of our minds (Ben and I), so the more laughs and good times we can pack around this day, the better.
SO- if you are a member of our family, mark May 9, 2009 (it's a Saturday) down on your calendar. If you came to our wedding, you know we love to party, so expect something similar. If you were not lucky enough to attend our wedding and throw down, hold on to your hats. This is going to be an even that you don't want to miss.
Can't wait to see you all!
Hugs and Kisses
PS- If you are not a member of my family and want to be invited, EMAIL ME (the addy is right over----->)! Much love!
We were married on 10.20.07 and have been having the time of our life since. We share our three bedroom house with two male boxers, Marley and Boston and a female English Bulldog, Roxanne. On 8.20.08 we found out we are expecting our first baby! Unfortunately we lost our Buddha on 9.25.08 and miss him every day. After a few quick rounds with an RE, we are pregnant again! Baby Abigail Marie is due Feb. 2010! Check back often to get updates on us, our dogs and our journey through life dealing with infertility and pregnancy.
Go ahead and mention my child, The one that died, you know. Don't worry about hurting me further. The depth of my pain doesn't show. Don't worry about making me cry. I'm already crying inside. Help me to heal by releasing the tears that I try to hide. I'm hurt when you just keep silent, Pretending she didn't exist. I'd rather you mention my child, Knowing that she has been missed. You asked me how I was doing. I say "pretty good" or "fine". But healing is something ongoing I feel it will take a lifetime. ~ Elizabeth Dent ~